how many more mistakes will i make before i’ll be able to stand on my own with success?
how long do i have to keep swallowing my pride to be able to say i’m good to go?
how long do i have to keep up with my guilt and frustration to myself?
now, i am making my own mistakes.
there is no one else to blame.
i think i need to learn to forgive myself and move forward, keeping my head up.
i can’t give up now.
i’ve just been getting started.
i just have to suck these all up.
there’s so much to learn.
and if i have to learn it this way,
so be it.
i’m dumb and stupid.
i know that now.
i used to think that i’m smart enough.
i guess i was so wrong afterall.
i’ve been fooled.
it’s a spank!
but i take it.
i’ll learn from it.
this how i learn in life.
this is how i build my confidence.
learning through my stupid mistakes.
i don’t have to avoid them.
i should not be afraid of them.
so what if i did something that i’m supposed to know is not right?
and so what if i don’t see the deceptions in front of me?
i learned now how i easily believe people. mainly because, i always see the good in them first. i don’t always think ill of anyone. i always want to believe that no one is so capable of doing very bad things. i’m wrong again.
experiencing these things first hand gives me valuable lessons.
i know i should be smart enough to avoid these mistakes,
but i can’t be too hard on myself if i didn’t.
i know, i will encounter more failures.
but i won’t give up until i finally get to that success i’m aiming.
i know i’m bound to lose more.
but i’m positive that i’ll gain more in the end.
i won’t hold myself down if i make mistakes from now own.
but i can’t let others just know about it yet.
because i’m still working out on that aspect of not getting affected so much by what others will say or them having prejudices.